Current location:	My bf's appartent
Current mood:	very depressed
Current music:	The sound of my bf playing WoW

Feels hopeless
It's starting to feel hopeless. The other night at the local feeding frenzy I was having a great time chatting with friends and being social. When my mom calls me on my bf's cell to talk about how I need to pay my insurance for my car which I already knew and then she hands the phone to my dad and he says that he's not gonna help me out this time and he's not gonna help me anymore. That just really put a damper on my mood. And to those of you who were at the feeding frenzy, I'm sorry if I looked all mopey but I was just trying to cheer up and be happy. There is some hope though. My friend haystack said that he would help me out by lending me $40 for my insurance, but he hasn't given it to me yet and I don't want to bug him about it because that will just make him mad. It's getting closer to the due date for my insurance and I kinda need it if I wanna get this job at Dominos as a driver and I need the job if I want more money, more money to get more insurance, to pay back Haystack, gas for my car, the list goes on and on. It just feels like I'm drowning, trying to come up for air to be pulled back down by the current of bad funk. I don't know if I should just give up or keep trying. I keep trying to get my life back on track but it just keeps derailing. Hopefully something will go right soon.