Current location:	My room
Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	Me typing

Trying to fix my life
I know this is my first entry in my journal and that's it's kinda sad and drama-ish but I've been meaning to make a new journal and today was the day I did it. I just haven't been feeling all that great. When dealing with my dad, the way he is and the way he thinks, it kinda makes you feel this way. And aside from having Dallas and my friends to go to, it's really hard trying to get my life back on track from what I originally had it back in Oklahoma. I'm just trying to get a job and start to live on my own with Dallas, but it's hard to do when your dad basically tells you that your not trying your hardest when every day your going out to several places, putting in job apps, trying to get a job, to come home and hear from his mouth that your worthless. It's starting to sound like that my dad is saying that the only way to make him proud is to off myself and I'm not going to do that because I have to much to live for! It doesn't help that I'm paying him 15% of each of my paychecks that I'll hopefully be getting soon to pay him for rent! At least he says it'll go toward everything, like food, net, cable, utilities, stuff like that. I just wish that he would say something else other than,"Your not trying hard enough", or,"When are you going to pay me?". *Sigh* Well, at least I have my boyfriend, Dallas, and my other friends to come to. I just hope it'll all get better soon. I really hope so...